Being a girl

zaebinita @ 2009-10-24T18:42:00

2009-10-24T17:18:28Z

Hey my dear friends...

... here I am again.. it's been a while again, I'm so busy these days!
We're all back to school for 2 weeks now and I haven't really been home for quite a while so today was the first day I slept till noon and cleaned my home.. oh so necessarily!;-)
Later on I went to the city to get some flowers for my balcony since my old ones died because I didn't put enough heart into keeping them alive. So now I'm pretty happy and content with my place all cleaned up and tidy.. it's the little things that make me happy...
Tomorrow morning I tend to go to church to say thank you for my good life right now and everything good that's on my way these days. In the evening I'll have some company and well then it's Monday again and I have to go back to school and work.. yay!
Maybe on Thursday I'll meet up with Pia in Cologne...already looking forward to this.
So what else is new? This term will be pretty exciting I guess.. there are so many lectures this year that really do interest me..like for the first time in three years I love to get up early to hear my Professor lecture me.. it's just great! There's so much to learn this year.. and I'm in such a good place right now with work, my friends and my life in general.. I really need to be more thankful for I can be really content with my life right now for everything is in place...
So.. tonight I guess I'll keep up on my reading for school.. there's nothing really interesting going on tonight anyways:)

♥

zaebinita @ 2009-10-11T19:41:00

2009-10-11T17:58:44Z

It's been quite a while again.. I already celebrated my birthday - which was amazing - so I'm 24 now.. wow.. it sounds kinda old.. well I'm still getting used to this age.. soon I'll be 30.. oh dear.. my horror - age!!:)
This week-end Milena and I went to Aachen for a little tour which I guided :) Even though it rained a lot we had a good time, slept in my old "nursery" and went back to Bonn today since it's time to go back to the university tomorrow and we're kinda looking forward to this after three months of being on vacation.
Next week-end I'll take the train to Bielefeld to Pia's housewarming party.. I'm so excited already.. looking forward to this for weeks now!!:)

Seee yaaaa

♥

I'm sooo tired...

2009-09-23T21:06:57Z

.. for my day has been pretty busy and I didn't get too much sleep last night. Milena spent the night and we talked all night.. so when I had to get up early this morning I was so exhausted.. I couldn't even open my eyes.. so now I'm pretty beat and will be on my way up to my bed soon I guess.
So what have I been up to? I went home for the week-end for Kathrin's stag party which was amazing 'cause I had a really good night talking to Pia's cousin:)
Now Kathrin's over there in Italy which feels kinda weird for she's never been so far away for such a long time.. she'll be gone for like 9 months.. it'll surely be strange not being able to talk to her for some time now.. we'll see...

So next week it's my 24th birthday and I'm kinda looking forward to this.. well I don't want to become older every year now for soon I'll be really old and my life as it is will be over some day.. wow.. time really rushes by..

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So I'm back again..

2009-09-11T20:34:11Z

... from the communication and cooperation week I had to spend with 32 people in Euskirchen. It's been pretty good even though I first thought it might kill me;) We had so much fun all together and still had enough seriousness to learn something. Of course there was some trouble in paradise for there always are some people who have to bitch around but it's been okay.. I didn't care too much about them for they don't deserve my attention:) So today I got back and well.. didn't do too much stuff actually. Of course I expected 100 e-mails waiting for me to be read but hey.. only one was waiting for me.. thank you, Pia!:) I sat down outside on my balcony reading my lecture notes for my upcoming (Feb/Mar) exam and just relaxed.. so nothing special:)

Tomorrow Kathrin's coming to Bonn which I'm looking forward to..yay..

♥

Beautiful Sunday

2009-09-06T20:06:18Z

Hey guys..
I just had a beautiful day today.. after I went to church by myself I sat down in a cafe with my newspaper drinking some coffee and tea.. just great. I did wear my new pretty dress and just felt amazing.. maybe I should start a new tradition for my Sundays which mostly are kinda lame and lazy:)
When I came home I talked to Pia for about 1 1/2 hours which was very very nice, had something to eat and stayed in for the rest of the day.. just hanging out:)
Tomorrow my BWK-Trip to Euskirchen starts until Friday.. I so don't want to go there but I have to so I hope I can take the best out of it.. we'll see.
On Saturday Kathrin's coming to stay with me for a day for she has some kind of appointment in Cologne and I'm really looking forward to this.. I love love love company:)

So.. now I'm kinda tired and I still have to make my bed for I washed my sheets today.. blaaa.. damn it.. I'm too lazy:)

Have a good night's sleep..

♥

zaebinita @ 2009-09-04T23:26:00

2009-09-04T21:39:57Z

... I'm tired.. it's been a pretty long day. This morning I came back to Bonn from Aachen where I went yesterday to see my parents again and take some money concerning business into my hands.. so today after work I went over to Frieda's to get some school-stuff done. My next exams are next year in February or even March but those exams will be pretty hard so I've already begun to start reading. It contains a lot of philosophical topics which I don't care for as much as I should do for I often don't understand what all of this stuff means and I don't want to get too much into this for I just don't care ;). So I came back at about 22.30h to call Kathrin and check my mails.. tomorrow my sister's coming to town so I have to get up a little too "early" for my taste :)
On Sunday I'll go to church and really need to clean my apartment. I so need to clean my windows, my bathroom and wash my bed-linen.. it's gonna be a busy day I guess.. we'll seeeeeeee...
Oh I almost forgot.. on Wednesday Milena, Cati, Benni and me went out to a local club called "N8schicht" which was pretty good. Milena and me stayed there until 4.00 in the morning being pretty drunk and funny. As usual I was too dizzy to walk properly so I kinda fell down - which was kinda funny actually - and hurt my right forearm. Nothing really bad happened, now my forearm's a little swollen and bruised but it's okay:)

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Oh I forgot..

2009-09-02T19:16:56Z

... here's a pic of my "new" glasses.. I have them for like 2 months now and they're perfect!

Whoa...

2009-09-02T19:06:55Z

..it's been quite a while again.. so much has happened since my last entry.. let's start at the beginning. So first of all I passed both my exams *yay* and I've been to Salzburg which was just wonderful. I went there with a friend of mine - Matthias - and we've had a very very good time, met some new people and even learned something there:) Furthermore I met up with Christoph but most of the time I hang out with Milena and Cati for we're still on vacation.. school starts in October:) So my days are kinda slow at the moment. I have to work every day at my new job in a girls-school which is pretty good actually. First off I've been a little overextended but now it's cool. I work in this school's cafeteria supervising the kids.. I have to make sure they leave their tables clean and put back their plates correctly and furthermore I'm there to help them out if they've got any questions concerning the cafeteria etc.
On Saturday I've been to an open air concert featuring Peter Fox which was just amazing. Since then I'm a little ill but I'm getting better so tonight I'm out and about with my "every-day-girls" .. oh I'm so looking forward to this..yay yay yay..

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zaebinita @ 2009-07-17T23:05:00

2009-07-17T21:14:23Z

Good evening everyone,

here I am again.. I just came back from a little summer gathering at our local seminary so now I'm fully stuffed for we had a barbecue and I had not eaten before.. damn.. I feel huge :-D
So what's on my agenda.. well next week I'll have two more verbal exams and then I'll be off to doing NOTHING AT ALL! I'm so looking forward to this.. right now time's really stressful for I'm studying day after day for those exams.. my written test on Monday was good I think but I cannot really assess it.. we'll see.
My week-end won't be so interesting I guess for I'll get up early to go to the library to study.. maybe I'll meet up with some friends, but that's not clear right now...
Maybe next time I'll have more interesting news ;-)

♥

zaebinita @ 2009-07-10T23:10:00

2009-07-10T21:23:19Z

Oh dear I'm freaking out! On Monday is my very important exam and I don't have enough time to get all the stuff in my head :-( I'm learning like all day for the whole week and still it feels like I'm never gonna get it done in time.. it's just too much I think. I get up early every morning to get a seat in our library which is full of people every day so one has to be there early and in case of need be ready to fight for a seat ;-)
Furthermore I just got new glasses which really are pretty but I feel like they're not quite right for I have trouble keeping up my overview and I'm not feeling much in control (like I'm drunk or something) which I hate. So on Monday after my exam and work I'll go back to our optician to have him look at/in my eyes to get some kind of check up.. we'll SEE... haha..
That's all for now I guess.. nothing more going on over here.

Oh well.. I forgot.. forget about Munich.. I changed my mind. Some post Munich crazyness.. insanity!!:-)

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zaebinita @ 2009-07-01T20:52:00

2009-07-01T19:33:35Z

Here I am - back again.
From Friday to Tuesday I was in Munich on a trip to visit Christoph. It's been a really really great time, he showed me everything one needs to know about Munich and I met all of his friends who were very very nice, they even want me to come back soon:) Maybe in our "holidays" I'll have some time to go back.. I don't know yet since I have to work every day starting in August.

At first I was pretty scared of flying but thank God nothing happened and I got there and back safely.
While staying there it really got me thinking if I also wanted to switch Universities and study there. I had that idea some months ago but I forgot about it for I had too much other stuff on my mind. But being there and seeing this clean city with so many people and all this culture and such a good education at the University it actually got me thinking.. but hello..kinda crazy. right? I just moved last year..

I don't know what to do.. if I could tell my parents or anything.. I talked to them back in the day and they were not strictly against it.. I don't know. We'll see I guess.. this would not happen until next March or something..so there still is some time to think about it!

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zaebinita @ 2009-06-06T19:37:00

2009-06-06T18:22:54Z

Hey hey hey...
another day is almost over and I haven't done anything but study and relax.. when I got up this morning I made a trip to "NETTO".. a new supermarket which opened up some weeks ago. First I wanted to go there by bike but it started raining (and hasn't stopped yet) so I took the streetcar. I got all the groceries I wanted after some time that I needed to find my way around:)
Back home I did my laundry (I love it!!) and started studying which I only stopped for eating.. after some time I took a break and watched "7th Heaven" on DVD.. oh yeah.. just beautiful.. then I'm 15 years old again and it feels sooo good:) Tonight there's nothing to do for me I think.. yesterday Milena, Cati, Magda and I had a barbecue at their home which was very nice so tonight I'll take my time to keep on studying I guess.
Here are some pics of yesterday:

That's all for now I think.. have a nice evening!:)

♥

Aaand another one..

2009-06-04T19:36:38Z

... I now try to be here more often to keep you all informed:)
Today I did not even leave my home.. I was home all day doing God knows what.. thinking back I cannot really tell. I was home learning but surely not all day long. I surfed the net, made some phonecalls and now it's already kinda late.. strange!
Tomorrow I'll have to work, later on I'll meet Maresa and Kathrin and in the evening I'll go over to Milena's home to celebrate Cati's moving in! I don't have any plans for the week-end yet.. I just really have to learn that's all I guess.. maybe I'll be over at Frieda's.. we might be learning together.. that's it for now.. nothing really exctiting happening!
I'm on skype some time of the day to talk to Christoph over there in Munich and most of the time it's pretty good..sometimes kinda annoying since we often are out of topics to talk about after like 10 to 15 minutes. But it's okay I guess.. I'm fine.. my life's fine..everything's fine for the moment.

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zaebinita @ 2009-06-01T00:20:00

2009-05-31T22:35:26Z

...and again it's been a long long time since I've last written something in here. I have to admit I'm a little too lazy most of the time..furthermore there's not so much going on in my life. At the moment I'm pretty busy getting along with all the stuff that has to be done right now for there are exams at the end of this semester at the end of July.. I still have another two papers due soon which are almost done but yeah..ALMOST..
Somehow I kinda hurt my back today even though I have no clue how that did happen..:(
So what's new..? It's been my sister's birthday yesterday and I went home to celebrate. We had a barbecue at our house which was pretty nice:) Today my parents drove me back to Bonn and we had a lovely dinner before they went back home. For some hours now I'm sitting on my desk tiping my paper and I guess I'll have to go to bed soon for I have to get up early tomorrow to go on learning and tiping and do whatever that is that has to be done. I'm feeling a little depressed this evening.. I'm not sure why.. I'm a little lonely and I feel huge and just not comfortable in my own skin.. maybe tomorrow will be a better day.. we'll see:-)

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zaebinita @ 2009-04-08T16:31:00

2009-04-08T14:45:22Z

Knock knock.. here I am:) Time passes by so unbelievably fast.. it's already April and next week the holidays are over and we all have to go back to work... this time without Christoph who switched universities and now studies in Munich which is not as bad as I believed it would be. Some weeks ago we went to Munich to enlist and spent two days there.. which was pretty amazing.
Furthermore summer is coming and I'm really looking forward to sitting out on my balcony with all my flowers and friends hopefully:)

There's nothing else out there for me I think.... not so much happening.

♥

zaebinita @ 2008-11-22T18:39:00

2008-11-22T17:51:26Z

Well well.. time has gone by and things have changed..pretty much. Christoph and me are no longer together..now like more than 2 months..it's been a pretty rough time for me of course since he was the one breaking up with me...but now we're some kind of friends I guess. We get along pretty well..sometimes even better than back when we were a couple..maybe because now we're not that into it anymore..
So..what else is new? It started snowing today.. it's pretty cold outside and I hate it.. I'm not really a fan of this time of the year!

♥

zaebinita @ 2008-07-30T14:44:00

2008-07-30T12:51:26Z

[current mood | lonely]

Hey guys...
... what's new? Well.. nothing special on my account.. I'm kinda lonely 'cause Christoph's still in Poland and none of my friends are in Bonn and I cannot go home to Aachen because here's too much stuff going on.. well well.. kinda sucks. Right now my life's all about getting through the days.. I still have to go on writing on my papers and do some other university related stuff.. but nothing really cheery! I mean, I get up every day, eat, maybe go to Mc Fit.. mostly spend the time on my own.. oh it's gonna suck so much when Christoph will be leaving for Munich.. damn it! :(

So furthermore it's really really hot in here and I cannot sleep so well at night.. I don't know.. everything's kinda annoying right now...

♥

So another day...

2008-07-10T17:54:06Z

[current mood | stressed]

...has gone by and is has been kinda stressful again. I was in the library to study and later on I went home so I could finally do my laundry and get it all dry outside on my balcony. In the meantime I sat outside still learning and now my head's all full.
Furthermore I have to care about some insurance stuff for my new job which is really annoying because no one can really tell me what I have to do. So tomorrow I'm in Cologne again for work and afterwards I have to go to the social pension fund to get some information and then I'll go back to the library to study! But next week's all over and I hope it'll all be gooooood!:)

Soooo.. in about 20 min I'll have to watch TV.."Sarah & Marc crazy in love".. yay yay yay!:)

Have a nice evening!

♥

Oh dear..

2008-07-09T16:40:36Z

[current mood | exhausted]

.. I'm kinda ill and exhausted and cold and and and.. at the moment my life's kinda hectic and stressful because of the upcoming exams (orals)! I try to get up early every day to go to the library to have some "quality time" with my books :( I come home late and then I'm so down and out I cannot think properly.. I'm annoyed right now. I cannot wait for this time to be over.. next week it's over thank God!! My exams are 15th and 17th next week. Later on I will relax for like a week and then I have to write some reports.. but still I'm really looking forward to this..strange:)
But the good thing is.. I've got a job now in Cologne! Finally some money!!:)

So outside it's raining and I think I'll learn now.. nothing else to do.. Lord I'm young and already boring..haha..

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zaebinita @ 2008-05-13T20:07:00

2008-05-13T18:21:00Z

[current mood | relaxed]

Hey hey hey.. I'm feeling pretty fine! I just got home from a wonderful date with Alma.. we were lying near the Rhine on our towels in bikinis enjoying the sun! Actually we wanted to go to the open air bath but it doesn't open up until June 1st..stupid... and of course we didn't know!:D
But it was great nevertheless and I'm getting more and more colour which I'm really excited about! I love the summer look.. it fells so healthy..
Tomorrow Christoph's coming and we'll have some alone time before we'll go to Cologne to meet Henning and have some beer as far as I'm informed.. I don't know..we'll see.
So there's nothing new in my life so far..I guess.. still working on my paper.. well..that's all for now.

♥

zaebinita @ 2008-04-23T23:10:00

2008-04-23T21:21:38Z

[current mood | working]

Oh hey everyone.. or better.. hey you.. I'm pretty sure there aren't many people reading this;)
My days mostly are pretty full because this term is hard. I still have 2 papers to do and give a presentation on Augustins' mother Monica. My biggest problem is just, that I cannot print.. my printer is damaged and no one has any idea how to get it fixed because there's nothing wrong..damn it! It just does not print without any error - message.. it really does suck!
So furthermore I'm in a good state of mind.. everything's fine in my relationship with Christoph and this week-end I will be home again because of my mum's birthday so I won't be all alone again. I'm really looking forward to this..it surely will be fun.. well..I hope..;)

♥

zaebinita @ 2008-04-10T19:42:00

2008-04-10T17:59:09Z

[current mood | okay]

Hey guys,
what's new?
Well we're all back to university..starting fresh! So week 1 is already over and nothing really happened. I'm glad I can see all my friends again and I have like a controlled day and I'm not sleeping until noon;)
So the sun was shining today and I cannot wait for summer to come..when we can all lie on the grass outside the university!
This weekend is pretty full which I'm happy about. Pia is coming tomorrow and on Saturday we'll attend Vero's birthday party with Kathrin coming from Aachen. I hope it'll be fun.

♥

zaebinita @ 2008-03-27T16:16:00

2008-03-27T15:27:35Z

[current mood | relieved]

Hey guys,
here are some news. Well Christoph has not changed his mind about going to Munich but he might have changed his mind about staying there afterwards. Yesterday we met for the first time after three weeks and it was just wonderful! We had a wonderful time just hanging around and he told me how much he missed me etc.. it was just perfect. So before he left he asked when he was allowed to come back (which he never asked before) and I'm just looking forward to it.. sure we haven't set a date or something but we'll talk about it another time on ICQ or something I guess. Sure it'll still be hard when he leaves for Munich but I try to enjoy the time we have left..you know!?
So today I went for lunch with Alma and afterwards we went to the city to buy some flowers and when I got home put them all nicely on my balcony which I'm pretty proud of. It's silly..I know:)
Now I'm about to learn for my upcoming test on Tuesday because tonight I won't have time because of "Germany's next topmodel":)

So have a nice day
♥

where do we go from here?

2008-03-02T22:54:41Z

[current mood | pessimistic]

Well well.. I cannot tell.. I definetely cannot tell. Christoph thinks about going to Munich in winter for one semester and maybe he'll be staying there if he feels welcome.. but what will happen to us? We're just having one of our stupid ICQ talks where we're not going anywhere and I feel pretty much fucked up. First we wanted to do one semester in another town together.. but now it seems that he wants to do this on his own.. he has to think about himself he says.. sure.. I want him to use this opportunity but I cannot imagine our relationship surviving this.. I don't know. We're not really steady in our relationship..not at all.. and I don't want him to leave me or us behind. He asks me what I do think about this but does it matter? I cannot make him stay.. sure I want him to stay by my side.. but he'll never be that kind of guy.. I know how my relationship with Martin sucked in the end because we didn't see each other as much as we did before.. he doesn't even love me.. is it worth all that drama? I just struggle.. nothing is decided yet.. but.. I'm scared it will happen and I'm on my own again.. all by myself in Bonn.. with whom else around if he's not there? I've never been that confused in my life... since I know him everything is so complicated.. I just want him to love me..that's all I want.. damn it! I just thought we'd be forever but it's all so unsure and I'm not his priority.. so .. where do we go from here..?

zaebinita @ 2007-12-05T08:23:00

2007-12-05T07:33:31Z

[current mood | thoughtful]

Hey there..
here I am again.
At the moment everything's kinda hectic.. I'm home late every day and so much work to do. Furthermore I'm feeling sick..I've got a dry cough, maybe because of the moult in my flat.. which pretty much sucks. My hirer does come along today to have a look at that..but I already do have another flat to move to.. January. I'm really looking forward to it even though it'll be pretty stressful 'cause it's so short after Christmas and New Year's eve.. well... we'll see.
So I just cleaned my whole flat and now I' waiting.... surprisingly I'm not that tired.. I just could not fall asleep yesterday.. well..maybe I can jump into bed this evening pretty early.

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